I quit the company four times due to depression .
In my case, it started in 2011, and it has been recurring even now in 2018, and I feel like I've become independent in a state where it's no good, but I'm on leave due to depression. After receiving the injury and illness allowance, I re-employed several times after that, and after all I relapsed and quit.
I hope that it will be useful for those who are thinking about re-employment at another workplace instead of returning to work by saying "I have healed! I have relieved! I am not depressed anymore! I am fine!" I think I'll talk about my experience of re-employment. By the way, I haven't returned to my original workplace, so I can't say anything about it, but there may be some parts where the same thing can be said.
I would like to say earlier about reemployment from depression
Re-employment from depression is said to be difficult. I mean, the hard days continued. That's right, even healthy people can't easily get a job again. Many companies will be interviewed and many will be refused, and your heart will be broken. If it is a depressed person, it will be painful to die, and suicide will be seriously considered because "I am not needed by the world anyway".
Some may think, "I'm cured! I'm okay because I'm in remission!", But there is a good risk of depression recurrence. The rate of depression recurrence is said to reach 60-70% . The probability is quite high.
Well, I was the same, so I lost confidence in myself, but I was lucky enough to get a job again after being interviewed to crawl, but I gave up mentally beyond that.
I searched on Hello Work and online job site
I went to Hello Work for the time being. Because there is also unemployment insurance. In my case, I want to do a job that makes use of my web design and internet skills, or rather, I only have a job in my hand, so I want a workplace like that, but there are many online recruiting sites for that kind of IT-related work. I was looking for a good job on both sides.
Now, if you register for Hello Work, you can search for Hello Work jobs at home, which is convenient. I had to go to Hello Work to apply.
The online recruiting site that I used
・ Rikunabi
・ en
・ Find Job
I searched for Hello Work in addition to these, but in the end, the online recruiting site has more detailed information on the contents and conditions of the job, and there are also places where the atmosphere of the office is shown with photos (good image to show well). (I'm using photos), but what I noticed was the online recruiting site.
Of course, you can enter from the online recruiting site on the WEB, so register as a user and enter your resume and resume. At first, I carefully entered "Do not write negative content" and "Do not look good to make yourself look good".
I'm not sure if this is the correct answer, but if you don't meet at the interview first, the story won't go on. At first, I applied for depression because it was closed. I didn't want to get paid in advance because I was perceived as "depression = negative".
And in my case, I didn't apply for many companies at once, but sent them one by one. If many companies sent at the same time and refused at the same time, it was likely that the mental collapse would occur.
Needless to say, when many companies were refused and my mentality got used to it, I was able to apply for several companies at the same time and have an interview with me, which gave me confidence.
Mental coping when interviewing
When it comes to interviews, I get nervous, but I think I was more nervous because I felt like "Please hire me!". "If you fail, you're the worst and worst human being! It's not worth living!", I'm depressed. That's not really the case, and I'd like to say that I should look for it again just because I didn't have a connection, but I'm mentally overwhelmed and I can't really think that way. Because I'm depressed.
Then what do you do? It's a story, but many companies were interviewed and beaten up, and eventually reopened and became the last company
"This is the last chance for your company." "I'll meet you." "If you meet, you can work."
I was hoping for an interview with that feeling. I also opened up about depression.
As a result, I think that the hiring side and the hired side should be considered to be on an equal footing and hope for an interview.
In my case, I was open to the fact that I had depression, and being hired with the knowledge of it didn't mean that I was disappointed in working at the workplace after that, so I felt relieved. I was able to work.
So should we be open to being depressed? When asked, I don't think it can be said unconditionally. If you have a personality that makes you feel very stressed about being depressed or being known to have been depressed, it may be negative.
However, I wonder if depression is well recognized by society, so I don't think it will be rejected because of depression. However, I think that "healed" even though it has not healed is only a minus.
I want you to be careful about recurrence
As I mentioned earlier, the probability of recurrence of depression is quite high at 60-70%. I would like people who think "I'm okay!" To be careful.
I wrote in the article "I thought about a work environment that is prone to depression-be careful if you have a hard time working", but in my case, depression recurred due to the following stress, and I worked several times. I quit.
1. Commuting stress
2. Relationship stress
3. Too much overtime
4. Unrewarding work
5. Work that is not worth the skill
For more information, see "Thinking about a work environment that is prone to depression-be careful if you have a hard time working ."
In addition to these, I think it is natural that there are various stress patterns depending on the person.
I think that the first condition for a way to continue working for a long time is to have a work environment with less stress.
In my case, I mentioned earlier that I was open to depression and re-employed, but as a result, the stress of relationships was so great that I fell to the bottom of the dark side of depression again.
The situation at that time is described in the article "When the WEB designer developed depression ⑤-Transfer / re-employment / recurrence / retirement-" , so please read it if you are interested.
"In the end, depression can only be understood by those who have become depressed."
That's my opinion, but I feel like it's just a grudge, so please disregard it as an individual opinion, I'm sorry.
In other words, what I want to say is that it is important to understand what kind of stress you are vulnerable to and what kind of situation you feel stressed, and not to choose such a workplace.
If you can't, you can quit your job!
It would be nice if I could meet a good company, but if it wasn't for me, or if it was a bad place for me, or if I was thinking that it might recur, I should consider quitting. I think people with depression tend to put up with it and do their best. It is a belief that "a person who quits the company immediately is a bad person". You can quit,
That's why there was a trial period, and if I couldn't try it, I thought, "I didn't have a connection this time." You can quit. The company doesn't try, you try the company.
It may be difficult to change the way of thinking in that way, but I think that other people who seem to have fun are unexpectedly living happily with that way of thinking. I don't know the truth because I'm depressed, but I thought maybe so.
Which is more important, money or life?
Of course there are concerns about money. I am also worried about money.
However, forcing them to continue working can be life-threatening. I'll die. I'm sure I will commit suicide.
Which is more important, money or life?
If you die, you will lose neither money nor life.
Immediately quit such a life-threatening job and run away.