Hi, I'm Minagawa, who has quit his job four times due to depression and still wants to die but isn't dying. Of course, I've thought about suicide many times because I want to die, and I've also wanted to kill a hated person. I often feel sick of myself and want to commit suicide after all. But well, I've never actually committed suicide. It sounds good to say that you stopped before committing suicide. Speaking of which, if I drank alone in the middle of winter, got drunk and fell down on the road, and fell down all the time saying, "I should just freeze and die," I was protected by the police. When I heard it later, he fell down and muttered "I want to die, I want to die" all the time. It's a chicken bastard with no guts. I don't think I'm qualified to live or die. But I understand that I want to die. I will understand. I think that each person's desire to die varies from person to person, but I have lived with the desire to die all the time. I'm still addicted to it, and sometimes I sigh and soliloquy, "I want to die." There are many times. I always mutter when I enter the bathroom. But I want to die, I want to die, but I'm still alive. Maybe I'm alive looking for an excuse to live by saying something. I hate living and I hate dying. I didn't want to be born. I want to disappear. I want you to make the existence itself absent. I think that way. I'm sure you came to this page by searching for "I want to die". It's hard to live. It's hard to live. Why doesn't time pass as fast as light? Why do I have to live so hard to die anyway? Why do we have to live while being scared of all the difficulties and pains and the fear of dying? But I can't die. I want to die, but I can't. Is it a contradiction? I do not think so. Why can't I die? I'm afraid to die. I am instinctively scared as a living thing, and when I try to simulate suicide, there is not a little suffering in the process of dying regardless of which way I die. I'm suffocating, hurting, freezing, and writhing in the heat. I want to die, and to die I have to overcome such fears, difficulties, conflicts, and penances. "But wait a minute, isn't it the same to live?" There may be happiness beyond fear, difficulty, and suffering to die and live. If you suffer the same, let's struggle and live. There may be something beyond fear, difficulty and suffering. If there is nothing, you should die. Once you have overcome fear, difficulty and suffering, you can die. First of all, let's live once. With that in mind, I made a big turn in my life. I left my unpleasant workplace, became independent, and started doing what I could. Of course, fear, difficulty and suffering awaited. I read a lot of books to get over it. I still read it. Among them, what I thought "this is" was brain science and psychology. Isn't it possible to turn this feeling of "want to die" into the feeling of living in brain science and psychology? I instinctively. I'm hungry that I should die if I make a mistake in my life, so I feel like I can do anything. You can even deceive your brain. I feel like I can do anything because I think it's okay to die. "Let's live seriously before dying." With that in mind, I read books, watch videos, take notes, and output to my blog in this way. The feeling of living for myself, not for someone. A life that you decide yourself, not leave it to someone else. "I want to die" means "I want to live happily." I don't make someone happy, I make myself happy. You may be tired of hearing these lines, but in the process of studying psychology and brain science, I realized that it was a scientific fact. I don't read self-development books. It's just an ideal theory, it's a boast of a successful person, and it's only applicable to some positive people, and it's data with a sample size of 1, so there's no scientific basis. Scientifically, I collect information that "may be effective for depression and mental health" and post it as a blog article with my own interpretation. The feeling of "I want to die" still remains. No, it may be a little thin. But I still often want to die. So if you want to die, it's okay, I want to die too. If you want to live, it's okay, because I want to live too. You are delicate, gentle, serious, vulnerable and better than anyone else. So I want to die. But I will live a little longer. Just a little. Don't rush to death, live little by little. Then one day I will die. All right. I'll make myself happy. You may be tired of hearing these lines, but in the process of studying psychology and brain science, I realized that they were scientific facts. I don't read self-development books. It's just an ideal theory, it's a boast of a successful person, and it's only applicable to some positive people, and it's data with a sample size of 1, so it has no scientific basis. Scientifically, I collect information that "may be effective for depression and mentality" and post it as a blog article with my own interpretation. The feeling of "I want to die" still remains. No, it may be a little thin. But I still often want to die. So if you want to die, it's okay, I want to die too. If you want to live, it's okay, because I want to live too. You are delicate, gentle, serious, vulnerable and better than anyone else. So I want to die. But I will live a little longer. Just a little. Don't rush to death, live little by little. Then one day I will die. All right. I'll make myself happy. You may be tired of hearing these lines, but in the process of studying psychology and brain science, I realized that it was a scientific fact. I don't read self-development books. It's just an ideal theory, it's a boast of a successful person, and it's only applicable to some positive people, and it's data with a sample size of 1, so it has no scientific basis. Scientifically, I collect information that "may be effective for depression and mentality" and post it as a blog article with my own interpretation. The feeling of "I want to die" still remains. No, it may be a little thin. But I still often want to die. So if you want to die, it's okay, I want to die too. If you want to live, it's okay, because I want to live too. You are delicate, gentle, serious, vulnerable and better than anyone else. So I want to die. But I will live a little longer. Just a little. Don't rush to death, live little by little. Then one day I will die. All right. If you want to live, it's okay, because I want to live too. You are delicate, gentle, serious, vulnerable and better than anyone else. So I want to die. But I will live a little longer. Just a little. Don't rush to death, live little by little. Then one day I will die. All right. If you want to live, it's okay, because I want to live too. You are delicate, gentle, serious, vulnerable and better than anyone else. So I want to die. But I will live a little longer. Just a little. Don't rush to death, live little by little. Then one day I will die. All right.