{"id":550,"date":"2018-11-27T03:47:14","date_gmt":"2018-11-26T18:47:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/minagawa.design\/blog\/?p=550"},"modified":"2021-02-28T05:31:52","modified_gmt":"2021-02-28T05:31:52","slug":"utsu01","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/minagawa.design\/en\/blog\/2018\/11\/27\/utsu01\/","title":{"rendered":"A story about having depression, quitting the company, going to psychosomatic medicine, re-employing, but eventually quitting again"},"content":{"rendered":"\r\n

The Great East Japan Earthquake struck on March 11, 2011, causing confusion throughout Japan.<\/span><\/span>
I can imagine that there were many people who were mentally stressed that year, and I am one of them.\u00a0The impact of the earthquake would be the most difficult for those affected by the disaster, but countless impacts such as the damage to the nuclear power plant and the damage to factories in eastern Japan have confused the whole of Japan.<\/span><\/p>\r\n

Is there anything I can do for reconstruction<\/span><\/strong>\u00a0at that time\u00a0?\u00a0<\/strong>So, I searched for what I could do, and by utilizing my technology as a web designer, I started to set up and operate a site that provides information useful for disaster relief and reconstruction.<\/span><\/p>\r\n

And it was clear to the untrained eye that the impact of the earthquake on the Japanese economy was great.\u00a0Since the loss to large companies is immeasurable, we small and medium-sized companies located in the lower layer may fall into poor management and may go bankrupt or go bankrupt in the worst case.\u00a0I was thinking about what I could do for that, and I was vaguely wondering if everyone had to help each other without knowing it.<\/span><\/p>\r\n

Anyway, I tried to do whatever I could to survive the current pinch, but I thought that the economy shouldn’t be stagnant, so I tried to get a job at any cheap quote.<\/span>
The president of the company at that time felt a sense of crisis, and at that time I was a section chief, but I was in a situation where I cut the position allowance and cut bonuses for positions and above.\u00a0Still for Japan!\u00a0I was convinced.<\/span><\/p>\r\n

Looking back on myself at that time, I\u00a0<\/span>didn’t have to carry it on my<\/span><\/strong>\u00a0back\u00a0so<\/strong>\u00a0much, but I felt too responsible for myself.<\/span><\/p>\r\n

However, it seems that he was spinning alone, and he did not feel any sense of crisis, such as his colleagues and the person in charge of the business partner.<\/span><\/p>\r\n

I was indignant, “How selfish these people are, even though they are in a pinch of Japan.”<\/span><\/p>\r\n

Even so, I updated the earthquake disaster reconstruction support information site and worked desperately believing that Japan would recover someday, but now that I think about it, that was not good.<\/span>
As a result of trying hard to hear about unreasonable schedules and unreasonable price cuts, I was probably a convenient person.\u00a0The other party will say something that is impossible.<\/span>
Did you think that the screen design of an EC site might seem like “HTML and programs can be created smoothly on a computer”?\u00a0The sales person in charge says “by tomorrow” without hesitation.\u00a0I was angry at it.\u00a0However, I have already told the customer.\u00a0I had no choice but to force it to finish.\u00a0At the same time, in another case, on the Shinkansen heading to Tokyo on a business trip, a business partner yelled at me on the phone saying that the estimate was too high.<\/span><\/p>\r\n

Desperately finished EC site screen design, this is an estimate that was said to be too expensive, such as waiting for a week to respond to the work of the whole body finished in one day (after all, the EC site itself disappeared) However, I also learned that the sales person in charge of the other party was too clumsy and the story was different, but I was accustomed to this being bad for the other party’s boss, and various stresses came at once. I’m crazy.<\/span><\/p>\r\n

My heart has broken completely.\u00a0Perhaps it had reopened in my life, at that time my heart became very calm, and I began to think that I would die normally without any discomfort.\u00a0When I die, my joy and sadness disappear, and I feel that everything will be resolved.<\/span><\/p>\r\n

Then, I consulted with Mr. Kami and decided to go to the psychosomatic medicine department.<\/span><\/p>\r\n\r\n

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