I'm depressed, but when I get a job, do I hide that I'm depressed? A story about 15 companies interviewed

Some people are reluctant to open up "depression", while others feel guilty about hiding it.
I'm also worried that depression may be difficult to get a job or disadvantageous.
I changed my company four times due to depression and am currently freelance.
So I have experienced reemployment three times while suffering from depression in the past, but one of them was interviewed by choosing to "hide" that I have depression.
By the way, if you only have an interview, it will be about 15 times, but about twice that number, we have applied to more than 30 companies.

In conclusion, I should have been open to employment without hiding "depression"

Why do you think it's good to "hide" depression?

Prejudice against depression

When I was just getting depressed, I thought, "No way, I am", and I was prejudiced against depression.
・ I had a lot of negative images such as darkness
, inability to work, inability to
communicate
, negative thoughts,
and possible suicide
, and I was confused with the symptoms of other mental illnesses.

Since I am myself, I think there are quite a few people who have that kind of image and prejudice.

Recently, the illness called "depression" has been recognized, and it seems that various prejudices and misunderstandings have decreased, but isn't it still accepted as a "disability"? It is a feeling.
Also, in my case, relationships were the cause of depression, so I was basically misanthropic, and I was quite worried about whether to say that I had depression at the time of the interview. I have experience.

When you get a job with the choice to open up depression

When I first changed jobs, I was initially interviewed while hiding my depression, but all of them were rejected.
I was worried about it

"If you don't hire anymore, let's open up depression once."

So, I was lucky enough to be hired by a design office that was open and interviewed.
I happened to be the president of the company who had experience with depression, and I wonder if his understanding led to his hiring.
However, at that time, I thought, "I've almost recovered from my depression, so I can work hard," but when I started working, I couldn't stand commuting and stress.
Working in a new workplace can be quite stressful at first, even for healthy people, but at that time my depressive symptoms did not recover enough to withstand it, now that I think about it. ..
As a result, my depressive symptoms worsened and I retired in 3 months.

When you get a job with the choice to hide depression

After a while, I had a life, so I had to work somehow, so I changed jobs again and was hired by a web production company.
At that time, I chose to completely hide my depression and changed jobs. I also thought (
maybe
because the previous company didn't continue after all because it opened depression) .
However, even if I started working at the company, the stress was the same, and since I was hiding depression, no one understood it, and I was reluctant to hide it.
While I was working, it was difficult to pretend to be a healthy person, and I often went to the bathroom, went into a private room, held my knees, and crouched down.
I didn't have to work so mentally, but I didn't have any money or income, and I had a family, so I tried to do my best just because I had to do my best, but as a result, I tried to escape in a month. I quit.

Possible risks of "hiding"

Of course, hiding itself causes stress and leads to worsening of depressive symptoms, but there are also cases where the recruitment requirements for employment information state that "people are physically and mentally healthy."
In that case, you may be worried about what happens if you get a job while hiding your depression or having retired due to depression in the past and discovering it later.
Of course, if you think about what to do if depression causes a great deal of damage to your company, you may be dismissed.
Assuming the worst case, the company's argument in the case of a trial is "it caused enormous damage to the company" and "there was a career fraud at the time of joining the company", and this side is depressed and mentally If you are told that you are weak and your thinking ability is weak, you will not be able to say anything, and you will have to leave it to your lawyer's teacher.
Realistically, it would take time and money for the company to go to the court, and it could have a bad effect on the business, so it would not be possible to bring it to the court unless it was a huge loss. If you make a not-so-major mistake and the company finds it to be "caused by depression," you may be advised to retire voluntarily.
It is natural for a healthy person to take some responsibility for the work mistakes that can occur by hiding and the responsibility for them, but the fact that depression was hidden makes the company as mentioned above. Of course, it's one of the arguments on the part, but I think the important thing is that "this mental damage is great."
If you are depressed, you will surely fall into the rumination of negative emotions such as "If you said that you were depressed at that time, it wouldn't have happened ..." and the depressive symptoms worsened. You can expect to have a hard time.
It may be a rare case, but working with such concerns can also be a source of mistakes.

Experience shows that it was good to get a job open

In the third job change, I was particular about applying for employment, which was open to depression and prioritized a workplace without my mental stress, and got a job at a company that seems to be in a good environment, close to home, easy to work, and almost no overtime. I was able to do it, so I was able to continue there for about three years.
Later, I suffered from terrible power harassment and mobbing, and my depression recurred and stopped.
However, based on my experience of changing jobs three times in the past, I think it is more likely that it is better to openly find a job than to hide the fact that you have depression.
The reasons are : -There
is a possibility of a company that can gain an understanding of depression-I
don't have the urge to "hide" -I feel
that even when I'm not
feeling well, people may think "I can't help it because I'm depressed" is.
Of course, I don't think you can find such a convenient company, but if you are looking for a job that hides your depression, the chances of finding a workplace in such a good environment are much lower.
Therefore, at the stage of applying for employment, add a sentence to the remarks column when applying that you are currently going to the hospital for treatment of depression, and then send an interview notice. The probability will be much higher if you select only and get a job.
If you're currently wondering whether to hide your depression in job hunting, I definitely recommend "publishing".
The mental burden after starting work is completely different.
In my case, I tried my best to find a new job on the recrete site etc., but there is a service that supports people who have difficulty finding employment due to depression etc., so if you like, you can use it. Isn't it okay?