Why do you want to commit suicide?
I'm not afraid to die, but
There is no fear in "death" itself. When I was a kid, I imagined when I died, and I was overwhelmed by fear and cried every night. I'm afraid that I can't know the world where I'm gone, and I'm horrified to imagine myself lying in a coffin, or conversely, even if I keep going forever, the earth itself will eventually disappear. Even if I imagined that I would continue to live, I was terrified. Fear whether dead or alive. However, as he grew older, he accepted the death and accepted the death as he encountered many times when he faced the death of a person such as his grandfather or grandmother, and realized that it was inevitable that he would eventually disappear. The fear of "death" itself has gradually disappeared. It's okay to die. However, I don't like "painful", "scary", and "painful", but I think it's like a child. In other words, I think the reason I want to die is that I want to live and escape from the negative and negative emotions and conditions such as "painful," "spicy," and "painful." Because I am now, I want to kill myself now.
Death = life activity stops?
Generally, it is supposed to be "death = suspension of life activity", and it is a fact. But when it comes to "suicide," killing yourself is not necessarily an "act of stopping life activity." I think. Is the only way to escape from the situation when you are dissatisfied or suffering from your current life for some reason is really "stopping life activity"? When I thought about it, I realized that it wasn't so unexpectedly. For example, if you can change your face, nationality, and gender, and be reborn as a completely different person and lead a completely different life, you may be able to abandon your former self. Realistically, it seems impossible to do something like this example, but I don't think it's 0%. It takes money to shape and change sex, and is it possible to change nationality and name in a legitimate way? Isn't it going to be done by the underworld route?
To put it the other way around, I also considered committing a crime to live.
Because suicide is a crime when it comes to crime. I think there are various opinions about religion. A person who thinks that suicide is a sin and wants to sin in that way, but even if he thinks that suicide is not a sin, suicide is definitely an act that causes some trouble to others, so a person who is thinking of doing it is another way Isn't it ridiculous to dismiss it because it's a crime or because it's a nuisance to people? I don't recommend crime, but can you afford to be ethical on the verge of living or dying yourself? I don't have it. Well, I've talked about this in extreme terms, but what I mean is that it's worth trying in seemingly unrealistic ways. So, I thought that I couldn't commit a crime as the worst move, but I still thought about it in a legal and ethical range. In my case, I am depressed and misanthropic, so I am only afraid of general social life such as "even if I get a job, depression will recur due to human relationships". did. If you can't do it well, then you should die cleanly. Then, is there any other way of life with as few relationships as possible? I decided to carry out "independence," which I had vaguely thought about before. In fact, I realized that the answer had been in me for quite some time. By starting a business or becoming a freelancer, I may be able to get out of a mentally difficult situation due to this depression and relationships, but I can not make a decision because of the high risk and I have not investigated the specifics at all. However, when I was mentally cornered and finally decided to commit suicide, I suddenly felt like, "Then, if you try to be independent and fail, you will die gracefully, and before you die, you will thoroughly resist your life." I'm dying, so I just do what I can do, "I don't do what I don't want to do." Even if you say that you will be freelance, it is full of anxiety and fear, "I'm sure it will work. It was a loop of negative thinking, "I don't have it," but even so, I thought from the bottom of my heart that "it's 100 million times better than this difficult situation," so I was able to decide and execute it as a freelancer. think. As a result, I can't say it's a success yet, but I'm barely able to manage it. However, I'm really mentally saved (although it can be difficult), and I don't think I can spend every day with such a peaceful feeling if I'm still at my previous workplace. In my case, I abandoned my normal social life and became freelance, but I can't say it unconditionally because there are people in various circumstances, but before I stop my life activities, I can bite at the last moment and make my life and fate. I think it would be good to try it. But I think there are people who say, "If you can do that, you won't have a hard time." That's right. I'm having a hard time because I haven't actually done that. If I don't do it, I will die while suffering from 100% maintenance. If you try it, you may be able to escape from the current situation, and since I thought it was the worst now, it will not be 100% worse than it is now, so I should do it even more. If you can't do it well, then you should die cleanly. I'm alive thinking. I think. That's right. I'm having a hard time because I haven't actually done that. If I don't do it, I will die while suffering from 100% maintenance. If you try it, you may be able to escape from the current situation, and since I thought it was the worst now, it will not be 100% worse than it is now, so I should do it even more. If you can't do it well, then you should die cleanly. I'm alive thinking. I think. That's right. I'm having a hard time because I haven't actually done that. If I don't do it, I will die while suffering from 100% maintenance. If you try it, you may be able to escape from the current situation, and since I thought it was the worst now, it will not be 100% worse than it is now, so I should do it even more. If you can't do it well, then you should die cleanly. I'm alive thinking.