Life is hard ... but why don't you talk to someone before you die ...?

I think there are many people who are suffering and suffering so much that they want to commit suicide. I think there are many reasons why you want to commit suicide, such as hardships in your life, relationships, or family circumstances, but there are people who simply deny that you can't commit suicide!

Will suicide free me from all the suffering?

 I think the answer is "yes". You can completely get rid of your suffering, worries, and painful reality. But at the same time, you don't get fun, happiness, or relief. There is no world after death, and if you die, you don't have all the emotions, feelings, and thoughts, and you never know that you're dead. Furthermore, if you fail to commit suicide, you will be dragged back into a more painful reality, and the risk is great.

This is a personal idea, but when I die, I think that time will stop. Time is a concept that exists in the human brain and memory, and if the brain stops functioning and thinking stops, time also stops, rather the concept of time itself disappears from you. For other living people, that person's time may be flowing, but their time will stop. finish. lose.

This depends on the way of thinking, so some people may have different opinions. Well, it doesn't matter to people who are seriously dying from now on. But what is the real reason for seeking suicide? If you think about it, it's probably something like "I want to be free from suffering and live happily." However, I don't know how to do it, so I can only think of suicide = I wonder if suicide is the only way to come up with the idea. If you can't find any way to be happy, that's the way to go. I also have suicidal ideation. So I'm investigating how to surely die, and when I actually die, I use that method and roughly simulate the place and time. However, it intends to commit suicide if "I can't find any way to be happy".

I consulted with someone for the time being

I became depressed due to human relationships and was trapped in suicidal ideation and suicidal ideation, so I was basically misanthropic, so I couldn't talk to anyone about depression. The only thing I could do was consult with my wife and go to psychiatry, but I didn't open my heart to the psychiatrist's doctor, and I'm still closed. It feels like I'm just going to the hospital to get medicine.

Even so, when the symptoms of depression became so severe that I was about to commit suicide, I consulted with my doctor, albeit a little.

I couldn't say much, but I cried and confessed that I wanted to die because of my anxiety about being alive and the relationships at work. I've already decided to die, so maybe I wanted to talk to someone for the time being? I think now, and maybe that was my own "sign of suicide"? I also think that I really wanted you to stop dying and help me. It was very encouraging to hear from my doctor's teacher that he said, "Please take a leave of absence from work. I will write the medical certificate. I am the doctor in charge telling you to take a leave." At that time, I realized that there were other options besides suicide.

There was no worst assumption than dying

By keeping "a suicide method that will surely die" in your chest, you will have the idea of ​​"I will die anytime", "I should die in the worst case", as if I was constantly wearing a suicide pistol. What can I do other than that? I came to think.

I didn't want to make my family sad, so it's hard to live with patience and live in sadness and suffering every day, but if I commit suicide, I'll make my family sad. I wonder if my life will be difficult, but at worst I thought it was unavoidable to commit suicide.

However, by consulting with my doctor, I was able to seriously face "options other than suicide" thanks to the encouraging words, and I was angry that "If you can't do it, you will commit suicide." What you can do at home alone, "freelance," so that you can quit the company, stay away from the people who caused depression, and stay away from relationships that could induce depression in the future. I decided to give it a try. I didn't have any savings, and I was worried about how I could get a job, what to do with taxes, and so on, but I couldn't believe I could do it, but I said, "Rather than working at that company all the time. I was 100 times more comfortable, so I wouldn't have to worry about money even if I borrowed money. If I didn't have the money to pay taxes, I wouldn't be able to do it. "Because I have a trump card to commit suicide," is one of the factors that made me feel like I could do anything. Fortunately, I'm barely alive now, but I think I'll die anytime (although I'm feeling a little weaker), but if I hadn't consulted with my doctor at that time, this "suicide" I wonder if I couldn't reach "other options". Why don't you take the plunge and talk to someone before you commit suicide? What I would like to say from my own experience is, why don't you take the plunge and talk to someone before committing suicide? That's it. Perhaps you'll notice something "other than suicide", and nothing will make it worse than your current situation of wanting to commit suicide. You may come up with various excuses such as "because there is no doctor" or "because the consultation fee is high". But don't you think it's ridiculous for someone who wants to die from now on to worry about that? I think it's just a matter of dividing a small amount of the energy required for the action of committing suicide. In fact, I was able to reopen and act, saying, "If you can't just do it, you can't bother anyone, because I'm suffering so much now." I really can't find a solution other than suicide! I think it's okay to commit suicide, but if you have a feeling of struggling with straw, you can talk to someone close to you, a doctor, or private counseling. You can use the Ministry of Health, Labor and Welfare's "Call for Life" , or if you try to spit out your current feelings to someone, you may come up with a different idea.